• 8:18 AM, Monday, October 26, 2009

Yay, whoever's reading this must be happy that I finally posted.
Scream for Teoh Yong Qin!! :D
Roflxzxz.

Firstly la, got back our results.
Not really very good okay,
didn't do like I expected to.
Only a stupid dumb A2 from Math,
1 more mark the 2 disappear leh,
become a beautiful number 1 like I am.
Damn kns la.
Zzz..
Then English even more tsk okay.
Damn lousy. Fkfkfkfkfkfk. Nabs.
All the others even more shit la,
no need mention.
Zzz.

Second ah,
its almost like the holidays le,
this last week is just waste time only -.-.
People 'O' levels we still stay for what stupid.
I want stay at home sleep can?

Third ah,
I think I'm getting back to badminton liao.
Its a bit sian la,
afterall we haven't been training for quite some time already.
Super freaking tired when i went back today.
Mr Ng was talking to us about badminton and our studies and subject combinations.
Yada yada, a lot of other things.
Then I super sleepy.
Bought NesFrappe Machiatto, hoping that it would wake me up.
Its damn nice, and it woke me up.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

But still sibei tired la after the training.
My limbs are like what, aching super badly.
Then play maple my hand there for dono how long, even more pain.
Ouch.
(I'm like stopping to stretch every few sentence as I type this).
Wtf.
(fyi, I stopped again -.-).

Was hoping to watch Prince of Tennis or Makai Senki Disgaea after I finish this post.
But its like.. 11.30 now.
Even though tomorrow's a holiday,
maybe I should sleep early?

• 9:11 PM, Sunday, October 18, 2009

Woo!! Came back from Malaysia yesterday.
A bit 不舍得 leh.. Even though it was a bit boring (the first day only la, we were like not going out and nothing to do.. Then I like just lie on the mattress stare at the ceiling -.-),
But at least there were people.. :D

Left Friday, just nice exams over hehe, at around 8.
Went over to Eric's house while 小舅 and family finish packing their stuff.
Then left again at almost 10.
Wee!!
Quite tired sia.
But cannot fall asleep sia. Zzz..
So I watched the Fantastic 4 on the car.
Not bad sia, the car has an installed portable DVD player.
*thumbs up*
In the end when I reaching then sleep, argh!!
Cause watch until eyes tired.
Reach 外婆's house immediately go sleep.
It was at around 1++am.

Who would've known 24 hours later I would've been drunk and sleeping.. :D

Then the next day at 8am.
Woken up by 外婆's stupid black dog.
Urgh!!
Every morning must bark bark bark bark bark bark!!
Wtf!
Went to brush teeth and eat breakfast.
Then very sian loh..
Play psp then no batt.
Sian again.
Watch TV..
Like 1 hour later never ask then the TV off le. -.-

A while later 小舅 brought us out to have tea.
几 nice sia!!
The food there nice and cheap!!
That's Malaysia for you. <3.
I had Iced Coffee White hehe. Very nice.

Then went back home and shower,
then left for wedding dinner!!
The car ride was very long!! Like 2 hours..
I think we could cover the whole of Singapore in that time..
Sit until whole body aching sia.
Even had to take time to ask directions. Zzz.

Then reach this 'Tiger Banquet Hall Restoran' at Muar. Roflxzxz.
The name very funny sia.
The toilet very nice!!
Haha random.

The newly weds: Kailee and Zhiwei!!
Congrats Kailee!! (But she doesn't even know I have a blog, so congratulations for the sake of it -.-)
Sit there for very long again.
Very tired, so I kept fidgeting.
Omg, Idk why I didn't have self-control that day -.-.
Then the emcee and newly weds arrive, blah blah blah.
Then we eat (shark's fin ftw!!)..

*Thumbs up for red wine!*
Epic underage drinking. :)

A lot of funny stuff when we got drunk hahaha.
But well, I lazy post le.

Took car home,
Want to sleep but cannot fall asleep again.
Eric fell asleep on my shoulders.
Zomg.
I wanted the first person to lie on my shoulders to be a female!!
Roflxzxz.. :D

Slept at 1.30 pm. No la, 1.30 am!
Then guess what, the stupid dog woke me up the next morning at 8, again.
Can't it get late for even once?!
Never give Ultimate Treasure Superstar Sunwukong (omg long name) chance one leh!!
Damn.
Went out for breakfast with 小舅 again.
Ate the same stuff yesterday (kaya butter toast), but this time with Iced Mocha!!
Nice. ;D.
Left for Singapore in the afternoon.
Said our byes, lalala.
See them next time!! :D

Ate our dinner in Singapore..
Then went back, immediately I on comp,
WATCH KO3!! <3
Hehe.

Kay bye,
needa go shower and meet up with Yapjunyi at Boon Lay le.
Shall post a few pictures on FB when I get back later. :D

I can't deal with children, uncomfortable around girls, slightly better with boys. And to sum it up, I think I'm best around adults. I'm like... an old man sia. Zzz... -.-

Take my hand, be my other other wing and bring this one-winged angel to the skies he can't reach alone. :D

• 9:17 PM, Friday, October 9, 2009

Argh.
EoYs started already.
I know I shouldn't be posting but I'm bored..

Screwed up both History and Geog.
At least 15 marks gone from each test.

I didn't mean to throw away the marks, for History, that is.
Didn't finish 2 questions, freaking out of time le, 狂写.
Then Geog, tsk, Idc la..
Didn't bother to memorise the Map work stuff.
In the end the Mapwork questions answer sheet whole page blank.
15 marks gone loh.

~.~
Hope I'll do better for the next 5 tests..
And that Chemistry better don't effing kill me..

Argh need to do art need to do art.. Zzz..

KO3 episode 33 damn zai woh..
Love how they play the instruments.
洗魂曲 and 安魂曲 are loved <3. :)

Hais makes me feel more and more pathetic,
cause I don't have the financial ability to learn.. :(
Screw me, damn it, screw me.
This life ain't worth livin' when I can't do what I want to do.

难道我拥有着无可救药的聪明,
就不能了解你了吗?

• 7:11 AM, Saturday, October 3, 2009

I'd live as a happier person.
I'll try to think happier thoughts instead.
I'll do things that'll make me happier instead.

I'll be positive, cause someone wanted to be.
And because someone said this before:
"You might lose hope, you might lose faith, but don't throw it all away".

Time will be short and each day may leave its own regrets.
But I'll do my best.

Edit @ 10.55.

Hmph. What irony.
It was only moments ago that I've decided to live a happier life.

Stabbed by fate again.
What's life without a sudden twist of events? What's life without sorrow?
But then again, all I want is a simple life..

I feel like my heart's a dart board, except that knives are thrown on it instead.

Life seemed to go at a 'One step at a time' pace,
suddenly everything's so rushed.

The beast in me is being caged, it cries out loud, wanting to vent its rage.
How I want to let it scream.

Tomorrow will not be a better day.
Next year will a much worse year either.
Let me whine in advance.

Its not your fault. Not my fault either.
Its never anyone's fault when fate's out of our grasp.

2 posts and 1 edit today.
So taken aback.
Life's at a much faster pace.
The path to perfection ain't even at its climax,
yet I feel so drained.

I opened my eyes, I received my fate,
I let myself get stabbed.
I haven't lost hope, nor have I lost faith,
Though it may just lead me nowhere.

Sorry if I irritate anyone, mood swings. Classic.
Just leave me be,
I'll try my best to not cry, not even tear.
I'll try my best to even smile.
But..

When will the act be over?
When can I remove this blue-coloured mask?

• 12:33 AM,

Heh. Yesterday's MAF, it was kinda fun. :)
Was quite happy overall. Though there were some regrettable areas.

Purposely left a lot of books and files at home, cause my bag was going thick from the PE shirt and Class Tee.
Had to use sling bag for these few weeks cause my back pack broke. Again.
Then damn heavy.

Siewyi fell down during PE. :(
Can tell it was rather painful..

I never really was able to help anyone.
Not before, not now, and the future.. I wonder.

The rest of the lessons was a bore.
Except for Math, me favourite subject.
Playing around with the figures thingy.. Lols.
And American professors came.
They looked happy when they left.
Wonder if they're satisfied with our lesson.

Before MAF.
Nothing much to do la aiyo.
Got my cookies from Jamie that I shared with Qinwei.
Ate some, took from Shuping haha.
Carried the drinks around..
Called Junyi to give him directions.
Played game.

Me wasn't very excited when playing the 'hide and catching' with them.
Tired and upset already.
Then some stupid 206 scolded me because Hannah entered his class when we were playing.
My fault meh?
He scolded me jibai.
I scolded him jibai mouth back.
:)
Satisfied after scolding him.
Not so tired le, got my vigor back,
but still not in the mood to play

Preparation for MAF.
Carried the drinks around again..
Played with keni's Tigger..
Helped with the shifting of dry ice and ice cream..

Then MAF started.
I wasn't supposed to be at the stall. I wanted to walk around actually haha.
But then.. the stall was quite short-handed so I helped.
Hey it was quite fun!
Even though quite tiring la.
In the end my legs tired out le..
Sat down for a bit..
And Keni's friends say I was shuai? MUAHAHA.

Junyi came so I went to entertain him.
Walked around.
But still thinking of the stall la.
Entertaining him half-heartedly.
Sorry!!

Went to Parade Square,
waiting for the CO performance to start.
Waiting for Mdm tan to come as well.
In the end she came..
Spent the rest of the night with her and the other Keming students.
Tired la, but I didn't have anything to do as well.

9 went to clear up.
But they were playing with leftover ice.
I innocent la, Kimberly go put on me.
Then I joined in for a while..

Then I just looked at them play..
Felt sorry for Tianyu hehe.
He was drenched.

For a moment I thought,
this bunch of friends brought me happiness.
Maybe the sorrow it brought along was worth it?

Then it was time to leave.
Went to wash up, cause I was oily all over.
Thought it through.

Maybe life's horrible, maybe I do hate it.
But I do know that on this day,
I was truly happy.

Took my stuff, went down with Junyi and Annie.
Said our byes, left the school.
Mdm Tan and her George fetch us home!!
Yay!!
Haven't been on a CAR for ages.
Even though we had to squeeze,
4 people: Me Junyi Isadora Annie at the back.

Reached home, showered, on computer, chatted with people on the net and phone.
Watched MVs and videos all the way until 1am.
Then I went to sleep.
I slept well, didn't have insomnia, didn't have nigtmares.
I had the best dream ever.

A dream will always be a dream, no matter how you make it sound, no matter how great it is.
And dreams often don't come true.
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Today I cried.
I don't know why and how I cried.
Maybe sometimes I just think too much.

No matter how perfect I seek to be, I never seem to do the right things, make the right choices, or think the right things..

Dreams remain as dreams. They don't realise.
Thus I wish I hadn't woken up from the dream I had last night.

In my dream I held her hand.

Life's never fair.
The good guys don't live long lives, and in our short lives we never get what we want.