• 1:23 AM, Thursday, July 30, 2009

Ok la.. I haven't given up actually..
I've set my goals long before already.
But its just that,
even though I've tried so hard,
I can't meet my goals.
Its really disappointing, yet little understands.
They're just concerned whether they're satisfied with their marks, even if they really aced it.
I even sacrificed my gaming times to study.
How much more do I need to change?!
And it seems I've forgotten my goals already..

From today I shall make a new goal, and have a new role model, EMMA WATSON.
Well, she's smart and her language's like perfect.
I wake up every morning looking forward to seeing her on my phone wallpaper. 8D

• 1:08 AM, Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Really tired. Really really tired.
I'm sick of going to school already.
It either bores me out, or make me annoyed, or pissed, like hell.
I'm not sure how to really describe the feeling,
but I'm not good at studying la.
I don't like to study either.
I liked studying when I was younger.
But now, I don't know what to do.
I'm like a ship on the sea floating aimlessly, no motivation.
Tsk.

Today got back Chinese paper.
I wanted good marks la.
I know I can score in Chinese.
But I don't know why, I come to NanHua and my score starts to drop.
I'm supposed to score well for it!!
A number of times already.
So I'm not really hoping anymore.
Just improve a bit.
In the end I still got the C grade range..

Why is it that, however hard I try, nothing works out.
Why does God just like to guailan me so much?

Fuck. I give up. I quit.

• 6:14 AM, Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Gotten flu and some sore throat.
At the same time Yiqing who sits behind me is suspected of h1n1.
Bless us?
I've gotten MC.
For the past few days I was wishing for it luh!!
Getting insomnia and not having enough sleep, I really want the time for some rest.
I've gotten it, yet I'm not sure if I'm going to use it.
My mom's really pressing me to go school la, since I don't have fever.
And then there's also PE and getting Chinese paper tomorrow.
I should've told my mom to bring me to the clinic tomorrow.
Then I would've a 4 day weekend.
Then that would be cool.
Goddamn it.
~!@#$%^

Emma Watson ftw~

I've seen through everything.
Yet, I'm stil afraid.

• 5:58 AM, Monday, July 27, 2009

Wtfug.
Cannot concentrate on last week's jianbao.
Haven write a ingle word,
cause my nose la.
Stupid runny nose.
Dono how survive tomorrow's Badminton.
Nose surely gl me a lot de.

Played Audi yesterday with winiline and her friends.
All so pro de.
Can chance lvl 6.
But beat rush fun seh..

Wished you'd say: 'Please hold on and don't let go.'

• 7:02 AM, Saturday, July 25, 2009

Finally can post. Yay.
Couldn't post yesterday cause I set Firefox as default internet explorer.
But to blog, I had to set IE as default. Wtf.
IE is getting lousy loh.

Finally the weekends. So good.
Tired from school already.
Insomnia coming to me again. WHY?!?!?!
Hais..Everytime sleep will keep wake up one.
End up next day cannot concentrate properly.
Maybe that's why today badminton distracted.
Hais..

Went to watch Half Blood Prince.
Bad choice.
I was super tired halfway through the movie already,
and it was rather boring.
Only Emma Watson and Bonnie Wright were worth the watch.

I got out of my pit, only to meet a corssroad.
Which do I choose? A, B, or C?

• 8:01 AM, Friday, July 24, 2009

Blogger has a bit of a problem I think. The compose message become 'preview'. -.- Kns. Now my post dono like what shit la. I want paragraph also cannot liao. So hard to see... See la! No mood already... I really wanted to post just now leh!

• 7:20 AM, Wednesday, July 22, 2009

My 300th post.
Just a short one before I sleep.

Sibei tired la. But cause of the stupid vj I cannot sleep.
Cannot save into CD for some reason, save halfway keep get stuck at 58%.
tmd..

Today overall is damn sian de la.
PE spoil me day again.
Wapian, rain cannot free play ah?
Nabei give us what lame pt..
No kick at all, end of the day never even sweat. -.-
I do Maths test in tuition got more kick sia.
wtf. -'-

Whole day was like spammed with Ms Lim's lesson. CEP and then Chinese test.
Chinese test ar... Study like crazy for the ci2 yu3.
Wapiang damn tired after that.

Then we go take video for our VJ.
But enough about VJ. I don't like to talk about homework much.

And ya, had test in Math tuition.
Quite easy though, at least more kick than PE.

I don't like it when he's all noisy,
it looks so hypocritical every way I look at it. Tsk. -'-

We're being bothered by tha pair thats quarreling again.
Why can't I just have the peaceful life I yearn for so much.

Really, there's only one word to describe.
EPIC.

• 2:57 AM, Tuesday, July 21, 2009

A fairly good day I had.
Had an excellent sleep last night,
but still, I'm tired in class.
Hais.

Maybe Art sit there for an hour an a half until sian diao le.
Hais. Did the rock painting.
Totally sianz loh.
Kelvin was praising himself constantly.. o.o''
His work was seriously weird, though, in my opinion.
I don't know what to draw.
Ms Ng say cannot draw the Halloween pumpkin solo there.
Then Idk lor... Copy the AYG logo. Haha..

PE was rather fun.
I admit that I cannot shoot into the netball pole la.
Thinking about this, realise quite some time never exercise like in a lot,
CCA suspended for so long, everyone die uh.
But still, fun la. Haha.
I just intercept and passed and attempted a few shots at times la.
Wee~
In the end we won with only 1 score to 0 HAHA.

The rest of the day was siannnn..
English the passage was lousy la, though Mr Lee was trying hard.
Chinese, dono how explain la, I was just sleepy after the whole string of events before it.
Physics, my favourite subject but damn. Why is it at the back I'm so shag already!!
At the lab do experiment loh.
I do all the practical work with help from Qinwei then Jiesheng just sit there -.-
He can't even do the graph sia..

Elit, got back the bloody class test from dono when.
Took here long enough to mark. Tsk.
I'd already forgot about the Lit and Geog tests.

Crossroads.

A path of uncertaintity, or,
A path of just not knowing.

• 5:40 AM, Monday, July 20, 2009

So long never blog le~
Super sian nowadays.
So many tests, and still got the bloody VJ to do..
Mou Jun absent, then end up we cannot do... Hais..
So mafan..
What bloody project lai2 de4...

Not going badminton these few days.
NOO~~~!!
Because of the Chinese test la.
Who ask my Chinese come Nan Hua become so weak,
no need study so hard. Zzz..
Sibei rusty le still cannot train.
Saturday see Jaye and Jiong Yang train like a bit sad sad de.

History test damn hard..
Kay la, I admint I never really study,
cause watching the Harry Potter on TV,
then come school then study.
Hais.. Me so easily distracted.

Bye.. I going to off comp. Uber tired le..

Her words reminded me of her smile, the time between the 2 of us.
Her words reminded me of the stories we used to share, the happiness we had.
Her words reminded me of the light in my heart, the dim I wasn't able to catch.

Crossroad.

• 7:32 PM, Saturday, July 11, 2009

Just why is that I care about others...
All they do is bite back at me...

• 7:16 AM, Thursday, July 9, 2009

I fell back into that old pit I used to hide in.
A pit of lost hope and unsurpassable amount of stress.
At the same time it was a close friend, somehow.

Soometimes I just feel so lost and tired and stressed.
At the same time I don't want to give up.
I promised the 2 of them I'd never let them see me give up.

Yet its not like I could haul myself out of the pit.
Its grown deeper this time and its still dark.
I've to wait for the occasional torch, the point when my heart lights up,
to define my steps and the direction I climb to.

I'm tired.
Today was when I tripped back into the pit.
The pit laying in my heart, waiting patiently for the chance to devour me.
I won't give in.

• 12:16 AM, Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Today was a rather interesting day haha.
Not too boring.
But I was definitely still sleepy.
Morning got PE.
Captains ball, quite fun.
Our group lost though, and we did pumping thanks to KelvinGoh!
Lols.

Then got CEP.
MsLim taught about Respect.
Kay, I got most of that into my head already.

HCL, lesson a bit boring leh.
The lesson was very fast T T.
But got one 'skit' la. Impromptu oe ohmygod.
Lucky I not inside.
Is damn gao3xiao4 la.
But at that time I getting super sleepy already, a bit buaytahan liao.

Geog next, even worse.
15 minute watch video.
Heck care man!!
Like I ever will want go a place that dirty!!

Math. Wah... The Matrices damn chim.
I had to ask MrLiu than I understand.
Zzz...

Bye, off to do work.

• 6:16 AM, Monday, July 6, 2009

Tomorrow will be a boring day. Hais.
Damned literature test.
I want to die man.
And wednesday another geog test. Urgh..

Bloody goddamn shit.
I want stay at home sleep la!!
Hating this.
Don't want to get ready for tomorrow.

Guess I'll have to blog again tomorrow, now no time le.

• 5:38 AM, Thursday, July 2, 2009

These few days has been restless, doing things so much homework.
I'm actually rather satisfied.
Still tired though.
School's boring, and I haven't actually had a perfect sleep last night.