• 12:21 AM, Wednesday, September 30, 2009

我很生气。
虽然说是朋友，但我已渐渐对他们失去希望，失去信心。

骂我，伤我。我忍
浪费我时间。我忍。
吵架把我拖下水。我忍。
guailan 我, dao 我。我也忍。

我处处都忍让，最终得到了什么？

I thought for others, considered for them.
No need to mention who minds me, how many actually knows when I'm troubled?

If only humans were more humane..

The light they granted me, only brought forth more shadows.

• 5:17 AM, Monday, September 28, 2009

Tired..
Bad day ah today..
Didn't sleep wel ah.
Had a dumb nightmare, a really dumb one.
About evil talking mirrors. Wtfxzxz.
Then this stupid insomnia, make me never sleep well..
Then everyday have headache and dizzy spells.
No mood study. !@#$%

Today Oral sucked as well.
I was second last, and I didn't speak well. !@#$
I'm so dead.

My chest hurt for a moment there.

Why am I so helpless, that I can't do anything when she's hurt.

• 4:59 AM, Thursday, September 24, 2009

Sometimes I wonder,
why are there feuds, why is there disorder, why is there dispute.
Maybe, if people were unfeeling, we could just live harmoniously.
Instead, we're so full of feelings, we insult, we reprimand, we anger others too easily,
because of our feelings, our judgement are hindered, we're unable to see the light in truth.

And friends, they're friends alright, but in everyone, there's a mask,
whether you're aware or not,
you show different faces each time, treat each person differently.
In the spur of the moment, you might make someone feel bad, over practically nothing.
Does one really like to hurt the people around them, supporting them that much?
Then what are friends for?

Isn't it just so hypocritical?
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Today wasn't a bad day.
Maybe I was just tired, a bit moody.
Couldn't concentrate, in the end focused on playing handphone in class,
oops? for a while only la.
Then just stare a bit..

Recess, messaged people invite them for the Mid Autumn Fest,
turns out a lot of them are having their tests during that period,
and they couldn't turn up. -.-
Sucks.
Have to wait until EoYs over to meet them.

Oral.. Sucked.

Jk, we weren't even tested like wtf.
There wasn't supposed to have any tests the day before Papers,
so it was instead postponed to Monday.
We weren't informed and so, we wasted half hour waiting..

Okay it did suck.

• 5:59 AM, Monday, September 21, 2009

Life is something people fight hard for.
It takes effort and time to earn a happy life,
yet a simple mistake made can make anyone feel awful.
Nothing and nobody can be perfect,
in every mistake that one makes,
it beats the purpose of what someone has been fighting for.

In the end, isn't a mere quarrel enough to make you feel stupid?
Yes, money is important, but its spent, no use complaining.
Ask if you don't know,
no one is going to serve you and report to you every single hour, minute, second.
Time itself is money, no one'd waste their precious time asnwering to you.
Instead of making complaints about something that's already over,
why not think about your own attitude?
Initiative itself is a virtue,
why not use that initiative to ask about the important things, so as to prevent more misunderstandings,
instead of misusing it, and whining.
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Today went to Weiwen's house to have study group.
Me Alex Junyi, and Weiwen's schoolmates (was expecting more girls lols).
At first quite quiet ah,
can do work properly de,
cause the other boys (I don't know their names?) went to play.
Then they came back like half an hour later,
wa sibeh noisy.
Not that I mind la.
Being with them.. can be more amusing compared to being with the boys in 204.
Ah well, at least some of them were actually intelectual,
and I'm glad I could have some time around people who could really study, even if it was only for a while.
Then.. like 1 and half hour later (impressive, I could not study for this long at home),
we went to eat.

Pizzahut. Not really interested thought, went to hawker centre take away go back pizza hut again, outside though, er... we were reminded not to eat outside food IN pizzahut itself.
Wasn't hungry, I eat a bit of my burger.. no appetite le.

Went back to ww's house..
Okay, hard time studying, now that we've eaten..
We started playing games..
And the commonwealth lot started talking about their apparently imperfect friends and teachers.

Left promptly at 5.30.
Kay.. Not that I've had a bad impression of commonwealth students.
They were better-behaved than I thought!!
Pretty noisy though, at times.

• 6:50 AM, Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I feel so guilty..
I've been slacking so much: not listening/ sleeping/ reading in class..
But I really no mood study la..
Sleepy + bored + cannot fall asleep.
Even the nicest of guys (mememememe) also can get frustrated.
And holiday just end class tests le..
Sleep late to revise..
Damn suck la.

But hor.. I today see Jingci do her history workbook in tuition,
omg I realise how much I've forgotten about my studies.
Play play play too much liao..
Need start to mug as of today.
Its not too early nor too late,
just the right time.
:)

• 6:54 AM, Thursday, September 10, 2009

有时我真的不知道，自己怎么了，很生气又表达不出，不开心，却好像开心似的。
表达不出心情，是何原因？

有时却很想做件事，但不但没能力，又没胆量。
这样的我，好像很没用。
有时帮得了忙，又好像说得太多，人家好又像不理我。。。

天使的距离
演奏：东城卫
作词/曲：东城卫修

那一天那一个瞬间
遇见了你世界忽然有了意义
每一分每一秒被你牵引
好想保护你却又不敢靠近

如果凡人爱上了天使的笑容
该怎么拥有
是否你愿意为我堕落凡间

你有天使的眼睛
美丽幻化成流星
消失前照亮我的天空
却不留轨迹
你有天使的羽翼
展阔随风飞离

来不及
不敢说的秘密
就是我爱你
遥远的距离

• 6:22 AM,

Today wasn't a good day, neither was it a crappy day.
Can't really decide.
Went to Sentosa for class outing.
It didn't really feel like a class outing..
Thanks to a certain few for not cooperating,
and thanks to them everyone started the day not following the plan. -.-
Tsk.

Starting wasn't really bad.. Okay..
No one mind anything much.. I think.
But I suppose something was going on halfway through.

Then it became boring.
Everyone went about their own ways without saying a thing. -.-
Then it really freaking became a 'not really like class outing' class outing.

I very bushuang loh.
Went to shower and cool myself down..
Then came back from shower,
more fuck, not a single person.
Then nothing to do, go with Yingchang Jennyeong Enjie to toilet, and shower again rofls.

Come back, ah at least more people,
but ah.. They very.. jiao ah.
But not my first day knowing them anyway, they're known for being selfish anyway.
Very jiao.
I never say I want play the 'Luge & Skyride' yet then anyhow drag me in.
I don't even know what thing la.

Then yay, they go first le.
Don't care them.
Can scold le yay~
Fuck make me so angry.

They want play play la.
At least think about other people first right. Kns.
Still, we ended up bringing Siewyi Keni Huixin Annie Jiamin Jianyi Xinyi Lizhu the group de bag to them.

Still ended up going to the ride..
Wanted to eat first.
Hahaha.. -.- Not that fun actually, was what I thought.

Funny ah, THEY want play ask US hurry.
Then later back at Vivo, when THEY want eat, tell US hurry again.
-'-
Come to them so urgent, what about us?
We never complain anything to them sia.

• 9:19 AM, Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Its past 12 but I don't feel like sleeping.

..........

I just noticed blogger's working all of a sudden..

Ok.. Maybe I'm tired..But I can't sleep..

Anyway good nights..

Before ending this post, all I want to say is..

SCREW JAY BARRYMORE. SCREW HIM SCREW HIM SCREW HIM SCREW HIM!!

Oops?

• 8:36 PM, Sunday, September 6, 2009

Quite a lot of things has happened this month,
kay maybe I've not mentioned all of them,
still, quite a lot has happened, seriously.

There's just one main topic in this post: friends.
This topic just seems so mediocre and everyone thinks they understand the word 'friends', but not for me.
I had to go through more than a year, just to slightly understand the friends in high school.
There are some of them I don't want to lose next year, there are also some who wouldn't bother even if they stayed.
Then, all the while, I'm afriad of losing my primary school friends, the dearest of them all. I don't want to drift apart from them.
I know I took long to know them, but everyone knows how easy it is to break the bonds between us.
Its not like covalent bonds, these bonds are fragile.

The time I have been in high school, I've known quite some people:
people I feel comfortable with; sensitive people; funny people; people whose actions I don't always approve of; childish people; people I don't always get along with; irresponsible people; guailan people; cute people; hypocrites; selfish people; inexperienced people; people who are ignorant of other's feelings, etc.

I get along with most people (I try my best to tolerate them). I don't like clearly displaying my dislike of them, but I just don't feel comfortable that way. Maybe I care to much of their feelings than mine. Sounds hypocritical.. But I'm just used to it that way.

Hell, the worse of them all, the first I met, take the meaning of the word 'friend' likely. He comes in between other people when they're quarreling. He finds no friend to sit with, and he takes someone elses seat, thinking its okay, he even snatches people's favourite work partner.
To hell with him, why can't he just find his own good friend? What's the point of stealing other's good friends?
No wonder his 'online girlfriend' duped him.

High school work wonders, you really can find who you'd like hanging out with, and who you don't like working with.
Its the friends that understands that I truly love hanging out with.

-The end-
Ciao.

• 5:02 AM,

Today morning went to JP with peep's arcade!!
Haha but I overslept so I was late.
So on the way there I was messaging Siewyi saying I will be late,
but I accidentally messaged Shihan. >.< Roflzzz..

Kay, so when I reach I only saw Siewyi and Annie.
Yuan2 lai2 Moujun and ianyi already upstairs le. Lols.
I thought everyone will late. T T
So sad.
Saw Moujun playing the bball. So I joined in. Broke the stupid high score.
Then someone else came in and broke ours. >:/
Watched Siewyi and Moujun play DDR.
Wah Moujun step damn hard. @.@
Then play the drum thingy with Siewyi.
I suck yay.
Only like 2 types of beat I still cmi. Zzzz..
But at least I enjoyed 'Dive to World'!! So cool.
After that we spam Daytona.
WHY THERE DE DAYTONA NO NITRO ONE? SO SAD.
Then I a bit a bit anyhow play.
WTF KEEP GOING INTO THE PIT.
And, anyhow crash= funneh!!
Spam bball (got free credits somehow), used the tickets for enjie's 'birthday present' then go eat lunch le.

Wanted to eat at Pizzahut.
But Siewyi suddenly don't want, then we all go somewhere else.
Ate at Mos in the end. Yay but not very hungry.
In the end eat until like want to pangsai lols.
They.. a bit zihigh? Lols.
And and Keni a bit stupid ar.
Dk how to take out tomato need me teach!! Muahahahahahahahahaha. O.o

Then went home le.
Spam computer until now.

(Oops?)