• 6:15 AM, Thursday, April 10, 2008
This few days, I thought a lot.Why am I trying to understand thm better, when they're just busy caring for themselves.
I don't know what to say. I have lots to voice out, but they just go blank when I want to blog.
I'm getting more and more pissed and fed up with the way life goes.
They just ignore me like its nobody's business. Unlike wayne, when I was doing PT for badminton, he listened to me when I said I was dog tired. I don't see anyone in class that can be my bff. Wayne could, Alex could, Junyi could, Kevin could, Darryl could.
Maybe I'm asking too much for a good friend. But at the least, I need someone trustworthy and can comfort me. Can anyone in 104 do that? I highly doubt so.
I'll just be back to the guy who only knew black and white, like I was. I won't act kisiao again.
I won't complain much. I won't complain about how bitchy anyone is, especially my mother.
I won't complain how life is anymore.
I might just transfer school, I might just transfer class. But I guess I won't. Since god loves to torture me so much. I'll just play with it.
You guys might ask why I've become so emotional yet unfeeling in time to come, but before you do, why not try asking yourself.
Fyi, I was crying while typing out this post. I'm not trying to earn sympathy. I don't need sympathy. Sympathy is like the most useless thing in the world. I just want each and everyone of you who ignored me when I wanted to voice out something, to ask you conscience.